(210) I feel possessed around food.

Do you feel possessed at times with the chaos that a binge brings? Have you tried everything to change your eating behavior yet feel addicted?? This episode’s letter writer is from a concerned family member worried about their parent’s on and off relationship with food. I have a feel you can relate. Listen here now to hear all the details and a way through.

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Dear Food,

I know you and I still have work to do, but I’m writing today to talk to you about your relationship with my dad (hope you don’t mind!). He knows so much about you, and he’s tried so many diets and plans, but he just can’t stick with eating in a healthy way. He’s had a number of health problems related to his weight and diet, and has to take about a dozen prescription pills a day to address his GI issues. He says he wants to change, and wants to take better care of himself – but for years now, he and our family have watched helplessly as the motivation wanes after a week or two, disappears for months, and then shows back up full-force. It’s been exhausting for everyone to see this cycle over and over again. He even has the self-awareness to see what works for him, what doesn’t, why he might be giving up, what psycho-emotional factors are at play – but all that self-reflection doesn’t turn into action (and he knows that, too!) He’s even joked that he feels “possessed” when he binges on sugar and snacks, or that his brain and his tongue aren’t communicating, and that “it’s time to go back on that plan again.”He and the rest of us thought that after he had to be hospitalized for the GI issue, it would be enough motivation – but he went back to old habits quickly. We’ve tried cooking together, affirmations, journaling, listing all the great things that will come with healthy eating. He’s seen nutritionists and psychologists, he’s tried meditating and going to the gym. But even with the support, motivation, experts, and health care professionals, he hasn’t been able to make the changes and progress he wants. Now, his first grandchild is on the way. We love him, we don’t want to be intrusive – he’s asked for us to help. But we feel powerless, and defeated that we can’t help. Food – is it time for him (and us?) to work with a professional? How do we know where to start, and what kind of specialist to look for? He hasn’t been diagnosed with an eating disorder – will he need a doctor referral? Will this be another expense and ray of hope that goes nowhere? He wants to heal, and we want to see him love himself as much as we love him.

Love, Concerned Daughter

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(149) My spouse doesn’t support this Food Peace journey (with Jillian Murphy).

What does your partner think about you moving away from diets? Are they cheering you on? Or admitting they wish you were pursuing weight loss? I wish this didn’t matter yet getting support from those around you helps your Food Peace™ journey. What do you do when the closest people reject body respect and acceptance? Listen to the latest Love Food podcast and hear from Dr. Jillian Murphy. We hope it helps you pave your way forward.

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This episode’s Dear Food letter:

Dear food,

I have always had a tumultuous relationship with you. When I was a child, I was alone a lot with books and used you as my companion when I read. I read a lot! Now when I look back, I really was just in a normal kid-sized body.
However I was teased – not in a cruel way but in a loving way by people close to me – my mother, sister and later brother in law all called me chubby. A normal kid would have just laughed this off, but I was a very sensitive child and took things to heart. For a long time as a child I thought I was ugly. As a teenager, I finally understood that I could react to this teasing by controlling how much I ate of you, food and by doing that I got compliments and felt beautiful.
Then came the college years and I found I needed to control you even more, food because now I was the one responsible for buying and eating you. I had very low self esteem as a child and did not know how to be around boys. In college, I dated a guy I had a huge crush on, who acted like he was doing me a favor by starting our relationship by saying “ok we can date but you need to lose weight”. I bent over backwards for this relationship – did a lot of yo-yo dieting in those years when I would lose a ton of weight by severely restricting you, food, then get into a happy place and forget about dieting, while gaining weight.
I finally left this boyfriend and moved to another country. I met my future husband and for a couple of years was very happy and comfortable around you food. I thought I was in heaven because for the first time in my life I had found someone who truly did not see my weight and saw me as a person. I am sure I gained weight in those years but it didn’t seem to affect our relationship.
However it didn’t last long. My (now husband) has been the cruelest critic of all with the most influence over my eating habits and weight because of how close we are. He has told me he’s not attracted to my body, we’ve had big fights and little ones over my weight and my eating and he thinks if I truly loved him I would lose weight for him.
Over the last 20 years of us being together, 17 years of marriage, 2 kids and many of life’s milestones, I have developed a serious binge eating problem. I hide and eat you food. I no longer feel conformable eating what I want in front of any one, even at work when I am away from the judging eyes of my husband. As soon as I finish one meal, I am thinking or looking for my next one. Even when I’m not hungry, I am still buy and eating you in secret. I no longer have any will power against you food and have not been able to diet or lose weight (even 5 pounds) for the last 10 years.
Over the last year as I turned 40, I have been doing different things like meditation, journaling, reading blogs and listening to podcasts to get a better control and understanding of my mind. I have begun to slowly open my mind to the concept that it was never you food, but rather how I thought about myself and my body that was the problem.
My question is this – my husband and I have been to therapy a few times and my weight and his issues with it have always come up. He has always been adamant that he is not trying to be cruel but that he is just not attracted to someone who is overweight. A quick search on the internet shows that there are thousands of men out there just like him. I know that my desire to please him may have started me down this path of hiding and eating, but I have now internalized it and taken it to a whole new level that is all my own. Is my only option to leave him and try to rebuild my life? We don’t fight about my weight any more but we are also not intimate or loving. We have two kids and he is a great dad – I feel I owe it to them to stay in this relationship. How can I build a better relationship with you food, when I have someone in my life who doesn’t believe in this approach?

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How do I get my family to understand my Food Peace™ journey? {Ep 98 with Carolyn Ross}

Are the people around you supportive of your food peace journey? Have you found a better way with intuitive eating, but are coming up against a roadblock with family and friends? Listen now for some tips on how to approach this part of the food peace journey.

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Episode’s Key Points:

  • Making peace with food is RADICAL! It’s truly a political act, and this can cause issues within our family relationships.
  • Health is about FLEXIBILITY!!
  • Dr. Carolyn Ross joins us to talk about the family, and how to manage family members who try to be our food police.
  • Food rules contribute to the development of eating disorders, especially if there’s a perceived “weight problem.”
  • Make sure not to go too long without eating throughout the day, and add some movement into your life to enhance how your body feels!
  • Intercept questions about your food choices and your body size by making some healthy boundaries. Let them know you’re working on things with a doctor or dietitian, and leave it at that.
  • You’re allowed to be angry! Feel your feelings, and don’t feel like you have to push them down to appease family members.
  • Remember, many of us struggle with internalized fatphobia. Be sure to address this with a treatment provider so that you can work through it!
  • Our weight research is super biased!! You can be healthy at any size… it depends on our BEHAVIORS, not our weight.
  • Research shows that the healthiest weight you can be is “slightly overweight!!”
  • The medical profession changes slowly and shifts in the medical community take time. The status quo will change eventually!
  • Permission promotes health, and shame only brings us down.

Show Notes:

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Thank you for listening to the Love, Food series.

Promote peace with your picky eater!

Hello there! Wanted to pass on that my favorite pediatric dietitian also trained in eating disorder prevention, Katie Holder, will be holding a one time only lunch and learn next week. Would you be interested? Or, know someone who would benefit? Details below and we would love to help make meal time more enjoyable! Reservations are required so let me know if you have any questions. Reserve your spot via emailing office@birdhousenutrition.com.

Warmly,

Julie

 
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The Love Food Podcast Episode 40

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Are you exhausted from your current relationship with food? The guilt, shame, excitement, fear, and despair often wear down energy levels to disempower change. Recharge by listening now.

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Key Points:

  • Editor’s note: This episode 40 needed to be released because episode 39 wasn’t quite ready. I’m trying to be ok with the break in numbering and hope you can be too.
  • Trying to recover from an eating disorder is exhausting especially within a family and world that hasn’t recovered yet.
  • We feel your exhaustion!!
  • Your awareness will bring more progress. This is the first step! And a big one.
  • Your family of origin greatly shapes your relationship with food. Don’t just brush it under the rug. Hear the noise yet try to navigate around it.
  • Curiosity
  • Finding a team can really help alleviate this exhaustion.
  • Don’t get stuck in the shame loop.
  • So you know the diet industry is all a sham. Join us out of the fog.
  • You have options and choices. You can experienced more empowerment by leaving diets and stop trying to control your body. WE BELIEVE IN YOU!
  • “Motivational” clichés as rules yet really shame-inducing myths. Look for quotes that ARE inspiring without shame and guilt. Clean up your social media to better include body positivity. This can help you normalize all body sizes.

Show Notes:

Do you have a complicated relationship with food? I want to help! Send your Dear Food letter to LoveFoodPodcast@gmail.com. 

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Thank you for listening to the Love, Food series. Give me feedback via Twitter @EatingPermitRD.